Conversations

I want to hear, “you’re beautiful” sometimes

Because I know I am

Inside and Out

But it’s a selfish desire

To want you to say it

See, I believe I’m a goddess 

Perfect in every movement

Flawless with every word

Pristine in appearances

But within lies a secret

Of what I hear in my head

you’re a fraud

you’re built funny 

you’re dumb

you’re not really attractive

Too many variations

Of insults and disrespectful vernacular 

Said in whispers

When no one’s around

I need to hear, “you’re beautiful” sometimes

Because I know I am

In personal and business life

But it’s a selfish desire

To want you to know it

See, I have a nurturing spirit

Loves with all my heart

Full of great ideas

So much potential 

But within are the lies

Of what I tell myself

you’re a bad mother

you’re horrible at relationships

you’re a failed entrepreneur

you’re not that bright

Massive insecurities

Bred by years of trauma

Done in shadows

When no one’s watching

I must tell myself, “you’re beautiful” sometimes 

Because I know I am 

Through good and bad 

But it’s a selfish desire

To want you to care

See, I am self-aware

The negative self talk

Mediocre self-image

Totally self-conscious 

Cuz within I know the truth 

Of who I really am

you’re gifted

you’re what people need

you’re headed for greatness

you’re not really incapable

Stand with confidence

In spite of my pain

Held to the light

When no one’s to blame

I’m beautiful 

I know I am 

From here to the end of time

And it’s a selfless desire

To want you to be beautiful 

See, I’ve been through enough

Life has its disappointments 

On the verge of giving up

Cast doubt aside

Cuz I know the reality

Of what you need to hear

you’re smart

you’re unique

you’re beautiful

you’re not really lost

A guiding message

Of life and love

Spread your wings

There’s no one to stop you